I see..

A thousand stares but no eyes
A thousand voices but no words
A thousand people but no souls
I see...

Staring into the blanket of the night
Stars twinkling but moon out of sight
I am not dreaming
for that I haven't slept

A mind with thousand questions
for which thy heart has every answer
if this life was just a dream 
Everybody would have been saner!

I saw the devil inside me

the world was at sleep,

the silence of night was soul deep,

the feeling began to creep,

that I saw the devil inside me....

moment that moves me on

I remember being feeling stagnant frustrated irritated a few days ago, the feeling which started seeping into "the plan of my life". Life had started feeling routine, I stopped feeling that I am competitive in my job, bigger ideas and plans started loosing the interest. Suddenly the dreams felt pale and boring, the thing that I was most afraid of was happening. I was giving up the chase. I had come to a decision that nothing good happens to good people, its better be a jackass( Look around you, what do you see?). Being sensitive, if not good at least not having bad intentions about others doesn't help.
Being human to the people means just another fashion brand.
Its an usual cycle I keep going through, though less frequently. Every time I decided to be the one I never liked to be (a jackass), there is one moment that hits me and makes believe in goodness and have faith in it. No matter how lost I will be, its that one moment that makes shed the weight of failure, treachery, cheating, disappointments and makes me feel lighter. They say "move on", but its tough I feel. That's the moment which moved me, made me move on.

I wonder how a place and its people, their culture changed me (how long I will hold on to it I don't know, but I will always have these lessons with me).

The deceivers just lost a friend and I gained better ones. Saying so, I move on.

I wish.....

Never been so far
yet never so near
there is hypothetical distance
which keeps us apart
our thoughts are parallel
and they say parallel lines intersect at the infinity 
ohh really! who has figured out the "horizontal eight"?
I would rather wish to live like a butterfly
a beautiful day, sipping nectar
flying like there is not tomorrow
I wish.....

July the 25th

Three years ago, I started living a dream and "bit" by "bit" making it come true. Ups Downs Disappointments Appraisals Promotions Awards Back stabs, experienced a lot. Faced challenges, overcame difficulties, succeeded in doing things better in my way and failed many more times in the course. My ingenuity, integrity had been put to test. Broken, bruised and here I am stepping into fourth year of my professional life. So tomorrow on, releasing iWork4.0. Still the ultimate dream eludes me, hope will make it soon there. Cheers :)

Let it go

I want to climb to the top of a deserted mountain. A place where I can be me, scream at the world, laugh at life's insanities, cry at its fate, stab a lifeless cute teddy till I am confirmed that its dead, feel the pain of which. I am sick of my ideals and I am fed up rules made by society which it breaks everyday. My hunger for pain has grown insatiable, I am done with excusing others and asking them sorry. I wish if life had handles, to break!

remembering you :)

Flowers I bought

Smelt just like YOU